How I like it!

A naughty glance

Lingering smiles

Hard wood floors

Clean marble tiles

A chase or two

On a sunny afternoon

Through the corridors

In our own cocoon

Stop a while

A breath to take

Life in totality

A slice partake

There again now

Our eyes shall meet

On our way we go

Through emotions a heap

Gushing blood

Through our veins shall flow

Pumping up

And pumping low

Once again

We’re in the mood

I say now

And you say Cool?

The Road

I walk this road down to a bend

A twist or turn but the road never ends.

A fork in the distance with a choice to make

A one way path for me to take.

Again I see this familiar place

History repeating itself for learning’s sake

A different path or maybe a by-lane for sure

To help get past the same closed door.

A companion or passerby walks on for a while

The crowded streets lure them another mile

Again you’re alone, your thoughts and your feet

A song in the head, a rhythm in heart beat

Walk, walk, walk till the road takes you on

Another sign goes by, another mile that’s done

You stop and stare and hope someone’s out there

An inkling in your heart or just a moment to spare.

Finally that bend when the end is near

A milestone reached and a lonely tear

All along the alone and the journey of strife

The road’s been there and it’s shared your Life!!!

Love Fades?

Sometimes you sit and wonder
Is believing in love – a blunder?
What if all you were told before
Was nothing but crazy folklore!

What did prince charming say?
When his princess wasn’t as charming or gay
Did he frequent the neighborhood pub
Or stay home for a lonely dip in the tub

Did Sleeping Beauty ever wonder?
What treasures would she find in her slumber?
No assurance was she given on that kiss
Would she ever have a life of bliss?

It’s no wonder that Love is blind
With eyes too one can’t ever find
A misfit so brilliantly made
To make you believe your illusions can fade

Fleeting Flirting

Wishful thinking
Shameless winking
Love Inkling
Feelings Sinking


Glancing gazes
Hopeless dazes
Lofted Praises
Workless phases


Affairs faceless
Reasons baseless
Conversations senseless
Direction aimless


Blood rushing
Soul Crushing
Emotion gushing
Cheeks blushing


Hope whispering
Faith reinstating
Fear eliminating
Keep Flirting!

Land of the Rising Sun Again

So here I am again in the land of Sakura, Saki and Shinkansens leading a quiet 2 week period. Home -> Work -> Home seem to be the only thing I really do. Solitude in a country with about 2% of the world's population! The weather is beautiful and well so is everything else. Peaceful, only months after the horrific disaster. The thing is I was here then and am here now and nothing has really changed. Still u find people getting all suited up to work. Everyone always in some sorta hurry to catch a train, bus or something which leaves me quite perplexed coz none of the transport systems really ever run late here. All the hurry for what??? Whats the running for? Oh and damn these pretty women all ready for work in their high heels...yeah right high heels....how on earth do they manage the almost 1-2hr work rides/walks etc in those?
Anyways its always a pleasant site every morning on the way to the station to see all these people so well dressed and on their way to work. Ofcourse none really catch u eye to eye coz its like they're keyed in and on a particular path with a timer set. Its almost scary when u see someone you know ( and trust me they all don't look alike) in office actually having a fun time. Which brings me to office - It is well part of a manufacturing plant unit... a bldg where the suits sit and resembles a shop floor in quite many ways, but then again I imagine everything here looks like that. So i somehow manage to quite easily land up at work at 8:30 which at times seems almost impossible to do back in India. The thing is here the support systems of the city seem to keep u on time no matter what...and trust me i do mean no matter what. Roadwork, Electrical work u name it and they have solutions to keep u set on your own schedule without hampering their work. Brilliant!! Yeah totally is. So gettin back to me draggin my butt to work.. I get in early and land up drinking a lot of water which is a good thing coz coffee is not my thing here (the coffee literally keeps me awake even through situations I'd rather be asleep in) and have green tea, milk ( a step up from coffee) and some other juices that are available here. Seeing that i belong to an Indian based organisation where tea / coffee come free and per diem is stingy or as management would say "sufficient for the average joe" one needs to keep a check on their Fluid / Solid intake as Japan although brilliantly stocked is far from being reasonably priced. So with all the walk and the regularized fluid intake i guess a few pounds lost is whats on the charts for me. Yipity yay yay to that.
The work day begins with our noses buried in our notebooks (digital ofcourse) with an occasional voice murmur or laugh (very rare) from some part of the floor mostly when foreigners arrive or come to meet their Japanese counterparts at their desk. Silence is maintained and more often than not its the Silence that gets to you. I almost choke on my words when i get up to talk to my client here - mostly coz I , being who I am, haven't spoken in almost 2-3 hrs ( trust me that's almost impossible as some of my friends would say) have forgotten the sound of my voice or am a bit tensed about bursting out at an unrecognizable decibel (atleast for the ones on the floor). I mostly lay low...sometimes thats physically what i do... and get thru the day like the rest on the floor. Then evening comes and its that time of the day again to tell your body to ramp up the blood flow and get moving, mostly coz u dont want to get in the way of the rest of the pedestrians. For kicks i do take breaks in the day to remind my legs they exist .... mostly around this cute baseball field here.
The countrymen don't really love the Americans but do a helluva job at aping them! Baseball, McD's,Starbucks and the whole enchilada.
Night comes and the city looks like the home of a million or zillion Fireflies! Its a pretty sight. Moreover the displays in the windows almost make you wanna walk into every store and buy all you can. Well it's atleast what i did a few years ago. I'm wiser now..not that the things i bought weren't good but its just that it's all stuff... Stuff you have no clue what to do with :). So the walk home's a delight and almost feels like scenes out of the movie "Confessions of a Shopaholic".
Then  I reach my humble abode... really humble... wooden flooring... technologically advanced kitchen , bathroom and lighting... The Works!! I don't even own part of the stuff in that room in my place in Bangalore! Its got awesome beds... sexy TV... Super loo and totally worthy of the name. It's the most pleasurable item in the room with the bed a close second.
The weekend's almost here and well I'm hoping to go shop and binge on the awesome seafood here. This is the part where i thank my parents for being Bengali and me being totally affectionate towards the delectable sea creatures!
While writing this I took a break and I'm just back from the walk around the park / field. I realized it is a pain not to know the local language as when a real sweet person walks up to you and decides to begin a conversation and you have no clue what the poor fellow's trying to say ...you're cursing urself for not really taking those Japanese classes. First of all its not everyday that a person of the masculine gender in Japan finds the courage to open their mouth and speak to the opposite gender and here you are looking all stupid and you might as well have been Dumb. Anyways we sat there on the park bench staring into space and sipping our coffees. Finally i got up and left with a smile!
Coming back to work and hoping that the flow in the article would somehow translate into the work too. Music playing in the background and the Blank ppt staying as blank as possible. Today is just going so slow and I have about 3 hrs to begin the weekend. Though not much to do there either but still hope's alive.
This place is beautiful and clean ...one would imagine this is how heaven's streets would look... Garbage here also is cleaner than the cleanest streets in India. Traffic here well almost non existent. If you hear a horn well that means your dreaming as no one honks...which is funny...and ppl still get to wherever they want on time!
So this post might go on and on and if i dont stop i might never get a word on that ppt ...so here is me saying Sayonara and Konbanwa ( good evening). Cya!

Go Get It

You need that new bag...
get the grades they said

You need that college...
get the marks they said

you need that new dress...
get in shape they said

you need that lipstick shade
get the complexion they said

you need that promotion...
make the deals they said

you need that car...
make the money they said

you need that luxury...
slum at work they said

you need that life...
make it yourself they said.

Living in my own world

All around, Everywhere

What I see, is what’s there

A broken window, a tarnished rug,

A ripe fruit near a water jug.

I Look outside on the streets

My favorite place filled with chocolate treats.

I did not see that man before

Sitting beside that shattered door. 

The building’s changed, its people new

Cold and unmoved, smiles are few.

I know that girl in the distant shore

She and I once laughed galore.

I move back to the early day

Not a single one I see today

All has passed and moved on too

All once that was changed in hue!

Sometimes I can see what once was

Sometimes it feels like shattered glass

A memory in stone, a whispered hope

A crazy tomorrow to be able to cope

Every time these eyes wander about

In hope to find a sturdy spot

To center in and build around

To make my world on solid ground!!

And I Miss You...

The gentle touch of your words that put me to sleep

More often to you was a quality not meant to keep

A million seconds of unsaid unexpressed feelings

And I miss you…

Wandering the streets from post to post at night

Taking leaves from work to keep the bosses out of sight

Moving in and out of apartments just to hear the sound of your voice

And I miss you…

Travelling to places just to get you away from them all

Christmases, new years and birthdays all a total recall

Alone or in a crowd a face that rises above all

And I miss you…

No waiting at the balcony or that early morning cup of tea

No one to turn to when it’s dark and impossible to see

Even drives into the wild don’t make much sense anymore

And I miss you…

And then the hope still remains to get you a step closer

Turn me into the hoped dreamy renowned composer

The lyrics are me and the music is you

Until that day I will miss you!!

The Green and The Blues!!!

I can't blame you

You were smart

Money hoarding was never in your heart

The greenery you liked,

Of Forests and Trees

Rarely reflected the inner scenery

Of notes and coins

And shiny things

A smile to your face it never did bring

But lil did u know

For the things given up

One day happiness will be linked up

Not yours but everyone dear to u

Would blame and name call

Even change their hues

Its not them nor you nor this cruel world

Sometimes time's the only criminal

That craziness and tantrums hurls!!!

Finding you

I can’t play dirty

I can’t even cheat

When it comes to claiming my prize

I mostly have cold feet

I’m not meant for this place

I belong to cleaner air

I think and see things

At times that aren’t even there

Some call me insane

Some question my pride

It’s the strength within

That makes me face the tide.

What drives me this far

To test my mettle is not known

This feeling that somewhere somehow

I’ll be surprised for sure

This guiding light

That is burning bright

Brings to mind the one thing

That till date is outta sight.

You're within me

Deep in the core of my soul

Telling me that everything’s alrite

Even when my heart’s gone cold!!

Need...

I need a man

to hold my hand

and walk with me if you can

I need a man

To humbly stand

Even when life throw's a party grand

I need a man

Who sees way beyond

The things of which he's fond

I need a man

A quiet soul

The turmoil inside to hold

I need a man

In the darkest night

To take me on the wildest flight

I need a man

An assurance sure

A mare in me to forever lure

I need a man

To stick by me

And I forever will his be!!!

Going

And I wake up and think
Do u have to go away
Sit with me just this once
Sipping tea and whiling time away

Tomorrow comes too soon
Today is barely done
What I have and want to say
Will take a while to come undone

Wait this once, right now!
This time will pass by so slow
Stand still and silently gaze
Until its finally ur time to go!

Dream a dream...

It doesnt matter if its big
Or small as it can be
Let it be all it can
Give it wings and set it free

Hold it close to your heart
Farther than the torch of flames
In your palms and on your lips
Keep it safe from all mind games

Love it like a child that's yours
Treat it like its already grown
Have it on your mind all day
Reap the seed thats sown

Feed it the fuel it needs to bloom
Keep it running on throughout
When its ready to take flight
Just scream and let it out

It in turn will help you soar
On to a higher ground
Take you from a place on earth
Making you Heaven bound!!!

There and Back again...

The day has finally arrived

He walks again

If only for a minute to stand back on his feet

Tall, though stumbling; brilliance in stature

Foot to head all radiating

A distant uproar to welcome him

A giant amongst the halflings

Off to take what was once his!

So here he goes on

A while before all is reclaimed

The pedestal that gathers dust

Now bears the man he is!

Come now, one and all

From lands afar and wide

Won’t be too long till time tells the tale

Of this MAN so Strong!!!

(For the man I've idolized all my life.... Baba this is for you)

I am Living

Wake up to the sounds of the drums

Swing to the music that I hum

Spring in step and a song on my lips

And I am Living!

Work a crazy schedule to the fullest

Hang with friends that are the coolest

Laugh, cry, scream then shy

And I am Living!

Hop from place to place

Energies unparalleled by any other face

Joys, hopes and love blended

And I am Living!

Work and play in a well brewed concoction

Conversations and crazyness I’d never auction

Hues of life in me you’d die for!

And I am living…..are you???

I am Ready!!!

Racing thoughts in my head
Pondering on words said
Analysing each move before i tread
And I am ready!

Visions of need and want
Hopes and dreams in a new font
Scares me for the i do or dont.
And I am ready!

Will he be my all
Will I be the one to fall
Will it be answered? My heart's call
And I am ready!

All I need to know
Is standing at my door
Waiting for Love's downpour
And I am definitely ready!!!

The Analysing brain….

The impulse to think

A dangerous thing

A tool in the hands of the mind’s right wing!

A thought outta the blue

Making one a shrew

Committing actions one would rarely do

Deep within the mind

The thought unwinds

Giving momentary pleasure to the one confined

Looking back to the deed

Now paying deserved heed

Trying to turn time on a sown seed

This play will dictate

Another man’s fate

Harmless yet cruel you sedate

Think and act

A closed pact

To thoughts generated off tact

You and I

Together we fly

Delivering the lie to the untamed Eye!!!

The Conqueror

Passion drives you every step of your way

There are times when you don’t even notice the stare

The amazement and wonder one has in their eye

To see a mere mortal reach for the sky

Humbly, yet full of zest you strum along

Energetically and carefully creating your song

Dreams galore and the power within

To strive for more than just heaven

Its there for each and every one to see

It’s a piece of you woven so beautifully

A worker, achiever and master at that

Glimpses of the conqueror as named apt!


(P.s. For the conqueror I know!)

Snapshot!

The rain pours in on the lilies

Water trickling down the leaves

A ray of sunshine beams through the clouds

A small rainbow on the ground!

Winds gushing in from the west

Paddy fields swishing to the beat.

Harmonically moving bends of the river

Meandering through the wilderness!

Birds take cover under the trees

An occasional attempt to fly away

Bravery and curiosity together blended well

Alas they’ve got to wait!

The eagle up high with a splendid view

Watches with a detailed eye

The scenic beauty beneath her grow

Nose diving into the heart of it all!

Sudden roar in the skies

She shudders and she shrieks

Her face lights up from within

All life a standstill!

A brief moment in time

Captured through the lens of the eye

Never a detail forgotten

Penned down for time immortal!!!

Coming back to LIFE!!!

It’s all down to this

Life’s gone amiss

Things we worked for before

Have received a goodbye kiss

Work and money

Are the new trends honey

Jokes cracked in younger years

To none seem now funny.

A word to the wise

Open up your eyes

This life you are leading now

A brew of deceit and lies.

Moving in this rat race

With no breathing space

Not time enough to notice

You’re stuck to the Rocket’s base

You burn and you pine

In your brilliance you shine

Each day takes away from you

The sweetness of life’s wine.

Days are nearing in

With you shedding your skin

Becoming a different person

From the one that is within

The return has begun

For the world wide web that’s spun

Moving forward into the future

Until the dawn of a new Sun!!!

A Bridal State!

That first step out the door

A heart beating fast and then slow

Gasping for breath with every move

The thought of the world closing in on you

The anxiety and the excitement all in one

Smile tears and wishes in tones

A hand leading u out there

Arms welcoming you with care

Eyes on you from every corner of the room

The one’s ur stuck on would hopefully be the groom

A pacifying smile, a soothing touch

Somethin out there for u to clutch

This will be done and over soon

Even though it’s a rare moon

Cherish and treasure all there is

The warmth and love in the eyes of his

All else will fly by in a whiz

Making you Mrs from a Ms

The look and the feel stay longer

The main ingredients to make u stronger

Life will take you through its course

This time being the only source

To remind you what it is and always be

A man’s love that brought him to his knee!!!

MAN!!!

Coming of age – a physical phenomenon

The brain however slumbers inside

A sudden display of sense – burning out

The simplest things you can’t decide.

Your hand being held from the dawn of time (yours)

Your mum, your friend and then your wife.

Traits you once had overshadowed by uncontested Ego

Strength and Bravery amongst the others since the age of Five

Time however heals all wounds – the one’s most appreciated

Chivalry and Decisiveness are now down the drain

Indulging in self understanding and betterment a thing of the past

Time investment on uncomprehended traits one shall refrain

The latest trend – a social butterfly

Perfect camouflage to the mask you already wear.

Not a care you feel – why should you

Most often than not to you it isn’t even there.

It seems time isn’t teaching you a thing

Lessons of the past are safely vaulted.

You shall get what is in store for you

My man, Charity from my end has NOW HALTED!!!

Happiness

Happiness inspires me to sing

A line, a limerick, a song or such a thing

Maybe to the beat of my crazy feet

Or it could be just a rhythm-less tweet

The reason so bizarre yet beautiful

A smile to my face small yet so blissful

Not a care or worry to think of now

This minute no Where? What? Or How?

Just fleeting thoughts of memories

Of times of love, happiness and even anxieties

The times that were and the ones to come

Making one’s heart pound to the rhythm of a drum.

This music within my soul

Increasing in beat like a drum roll

The feeling though now begins to fade

But its something for which nothing I’ll trade

A line, limerick and just a song

With me will stay my whole life long

I’ll remember the words and even its beat

Long after the rhythm is lost by my feet!!!!

The AUTO Ride

It’s late in the evening

I’m wondering which road to take

I look out my window

To hear the traffic and brake

I’m still in the office

Its better I holler a friend

Maybe we’d squeeze past this jam

Or maybe I’d be stuck here till ten

The thought has to come to my mind

To give the rikshawala another try

But it’s been more than once now

My hopes have all run dry!

The ease and comfort in which he denies

A ride to every person seeking a ride

His heartless reply and the look to deny …

You a lift from off the road side!!

Occasionally you’d find a helpful soul

To see the desperation in your eye

He’d offer you up a metered ride

Like an angel who heard your cry

This of course is a one in billion chance

For most often than not for sure

You have to tread back home

Or your own car’s the only CURE!!!

It's Me

When things go wrong and I turn to see
It's weird now that it's just me
All I do is a thing of the past
Friends I had and those I lost

In time I know we'll meet again
To share laughter and all the pain
Now it seems there's no one around
Just me staring at the ground

It slips beneath me from time to time
I grasp and hold on to life's vine
Its odd and sometimes yet so small
For as time goes on I grow so small

Each day now flies by so fast
A moment I wait and in the shadow it's cast
People come in these days for a while
They smile they sing they even cry like a child

A day will come not long from now
I'd wanna turn back time somehow
Roll to the days I sang and smiled
Be with people that were worthwhile

Not that new friends dont mean that much
Connections weak and soul untouched
It's me I know I dont let them in
Dont give a chance for them to win

My heart and my soul cries out again
Make me wat I was when I was ten
A bird, a girl a lively soul
Not a care or worry in the world

Frustration and lies have taken over
Draggin me to a place no longer sober
Searching for materialistic gain and things
To somehow drive away this pain it brings

No one these days can see wat I feel
The mask I wear seldom reveals
Feelings or things I'd like be known
Emotions they say weaken the grown

Humour has taken a twisted path
Responisibility and sarcasm brew in its bath
Time has gone for honesty or love
This day a fool I have become!!!!

Hillman Wonders of the World

Hillman Wonders of the World

Star Spangled Banter

The nite before was full of its suprises when a friend (Anubhav) came over with a rather unusual gift! A fish bowl with two amazingly cute Orandas ( Fancy gold fish). After cleaning the bowl and setting it up with the fish and playin with them I decided to konk only to have all u wonderful ppl call me and leave me all starry eyed from the wishes ( and I kept up till around 3). Oh and btw my new roomie who's just moved in landed up with a real cool perfume and then resumed watchin her tv - she needs a daily dose of 3-4 hrs else she wont feel she's downloaded enuf material for her night fantasies :P heheheheh
The D day started on a rather hopeful note when my early morning japanese class was cancelled as my prof isn't keeping well (sad for him but great for me ) Reached office at a lazier hour than usual to find my cubicle cramped with balloons and ppl all waiting to hog on sweets. Was bloody tired smiling away to glory and saying "Thank you please help urself to some sweets". Then the long list of phone calls and emails...and ooooh 2 damn hot guys (god knows where they came from) in office came up and chatted with me for like 15 -20 mins.... hehehehehe
the day went on with wishes, winks and work (though the last I barely did as mostly stared at me screen while answering calls :) ) The day went by in a whiz with the office guys gettin me a cute wood – cut jewellery box and some chocolates.
Towards the afternoon when all was just abt dying I had my darling(Richu) send me a box of Oh-So-Awesome Chocolate Brownies all the way from Naaaaagpuuuuurr ..... I totally controlled my self from opening them in office as I knew they'd be over in a jiffy so quietly hid them in my bag and went home to indulge in the sinful taste of awesome brownies.... (for info the place from where she sent it was Tauby's - known for their sinful confectionerys and weight gainers hahhaahaha)
Anyways soon very bored at work and majorly excited abt the evening I was off home.... went and felt like a school kid hoggin on chips :D (the ones that are generally served at bday parties with a slice of cake)
Then began the evening extravaganza :).... Dee came over and picked me up for dinner....
We went to this place called Ista - Amazing ambience, semi open air poolside restaurant.
The service was awesome. The company Oh-So-Charming! The Food so delicious! And to top it off there was live music playin some awesome songs - black magic woman to sounds of silence.... guitar and the sax :) Totally starry eyed by then we were done with dinner and I guess 'twas time to go home :)
At home I was left in a total daze with the effects of an awesome day and in my possession few very priceless pieces of art and love and a B-E-A-utiful pen to write all this down with(Waterman -paris courtesy Dee).
All this took a while to settle in and I just couldn’t get sleep :)
Finally coaxed myself into bed by 2 only to wake up late for work today hehehehhehe
Comin to office I find the most unusual mail from my HOD (Very hot married german guy) wishing me a great birthday and all and personalizing a mail that he generally doesnt do .... Lucky me I say!!!
Anyways so that's abt it for my star spangled banter :) thanks to everyone who made it so so so special...All the emails phone calls and pings :D
Love ya all totally!!!!

Bittersweet Symphony!!!

A drop and another after that
On and on they flow in succession
A perfect beat to the rhythm
And then all in one splat!

It rings and rings around my ear
The rambling house fly she is
Making music or so she says
Sometimes things I cant hear.

A noise here and one there again
Make for new beats and sounds
Making melody oh so clear
An now the flow oh so plain

The dew drops in the early morn
From leaf to leaf they go
The birds chirping away
Giving way to the sounds of the horn!

Everyone around and in the colony
Have their own rhythm and voice
Together with the beats of my heart
Give melody to the perfect bittersweet symphony!!!

Cleanup!!

Every once in a while we do a cleanup...just like our rooms, cabinets etc. Generally the things we don’t need anymore are discarded and the ones we rarely use are kept at the back of the shelves. Similarly even with life... our brain processes memory with the most recalled and used bits to the ones seldom used and catalogs it accordingly. The bits that we should never remember are most often thrown out unconsciously and the ones which should reside inside keep popping in our head every now and then. Feelings most often are kept in such a way that our body recognizes the best and the worst much faster than the ones that don’t have a higher impact. Its probably because the extremes are the ones we use to compare for the newer emotions or data we receive daily. Anything in between is gray matter - mostly difficult to differentiate between. Black and white are the purest colors and so the highest degree of feelings on the positive or negative are the only purest forms of that emotion. Comparison is a very important tool used for almost anything as categorizing is done within the head and outside with or without your control over it. So here coming to the crux of the matter - Every now and then I categorize my life and wardrobes and take full control over the process. I don’t want to forget things and feelings I’d like to keep with me forever just because I’m not in touch with it or do not have more of it in the present but I want it to be there with me. So here I am today Cleaning Up. Its been a while I know but I guess its time now for that dreaded cleanup.

I guess we all like to keep the happy things and discard the unhappy ones but it's time not do that and keep it as reference to what I do not want ever! It's been for real long that I keep telling myself that what one does to me it's not necessary the next will do the same but alas! This is the real world and you shall receive in accordance with what u will or will not allow. You cannot change what someone will say or do but u can change the effect it has on you. So this time don't let things get to you, let the lessons that come stick in your head. One can only control the way they feel and not what someone else dishes out due to bad circumstances. U can control feelings and not circumstances! So well the next time someone says something to you good or bad you will generally feel good or bad just evaluating the weightage of that statement or action but that's not it - if u feel its repetitive its generally coz your rules aren't set in your head and the grey is more than the distinctive black or white. This is generally because u don't have things sorted in your own head and hence you don't have a clear hold on the situation.
Not always can we look at personal matters so objectively and cold heartedly but sometimes this approach helps you to keep your standards and priorities sorted out and helps you from getting too entangled in the general rut of the "Moment".

Most often this is most difficult when we're dealing with someone of high importance - family, close friends, lovers and idols! When one deals with this its difficult to let go of the position/ status you've assigned to this one person who's causing you all this anguish and you're not sure whether your supposed to let go(clean up) or let them continue to bog your mind down with all their comments, actions and inconsistencies or plain shortcomings (putting it on back burner).I've come to believe no matter what u cannot make people see what they have or don't unless they open their eyes. Helping is what u can do and that's it! Undue advantage and taking for granted are the side effects when the one u place high and above steps down and doesn't treat you with the same respect you have given them. In this case most often you're hurt the most and wonder what went wrong. Well "You" went wrong in - placing faith and trust in probably someone without them earning it! Even if done so one should at intervals check if there is a mutual flow of respect and maintain the sanctity of the relationship. If you feel its one way - whichever way it may be then we surely have a problem. Fix it or Let it go!

What happens hereon will be your fault as you knew it was gonna happen sooner or later. So now we are back in that state of utter chaos. Well this time keep your experiences and maintain the bar! This holds true for the good things in life too. You cant get too comfortable with all you receive as sooner or later your not maintaining your end of the bargain. If u gained some ground with whomever including Family you always have to maintain the bar. You cannot get too comfortable just being at the receiving end coz sooner or later the one giving feels cheated and then all you get is either because they cant stop now or because its more to do with empathy of knowing if you lose this you might lose a lot! So even when its good every now and then you have to in some way or the other make the parties involved constantly interested in this. Everything in life though is not looked at with a business mind, if you do so you maintain your good ties for a longer period than when in a state of "Yeah they're always there for me" or "They're taking care of it why bother". You cannot just sit on your arse and expect things to run smoothly coz sooner or later the lubrication is gone and your machine will fall apart!

The Cleaning is required. Rejuvenate everything you have to make it all new and perfectly oiled at every opportunity you have. If you don't oil it then who will? Everyone responds to gestures from the heart - when one puts in some effort and keeps the fire burning then even the other hand raises to shelter it from the wind. If it doesn't then you know for sure that THIS AINT WORKING NO MORE and let it be.

So now I'm off Cleaning - hoping most make the transition to the new phone book :)

A Fond Farewell

“I got thru a b-school” ,”Yipee”, “Charrraaaaasss”…..
Jubilant and excited they call all of us and share their joy of getting thru the b schools of their choice. All in that moment everyone’s reached that state of ecstasy and there’s this sudden burst of smiles and a short thank you to HIM. And then the months pass in a jiffy and the notice period comes to an end and its finally time to go. Life’s passing by in fleeting moments and somewhere everyone close is dreading the moment when we have to say our goodbyes. The moment has come. It’s the day now where I will smile while I say goodbye hoping that we will meet again. Knowing life takes you to beautiful places and new faces and considering the herb intake resulting to memory loss is more obvious than not that somewhere down the line we may lose touch and may even forget all the times and laughs shared. These will be remembered when somewhere in the company of new friends we recollect those times…
Here goes for all the times we’ve had and those we hoped we would :)
To Shanks, Kavya and Madzz… For the new life in front of you!

The alarm rings and its time to catch the cab
It’s the last flight outta here this time
At the door and looking back twice
Checking again if u’ve left anything behind

Turn and then move on again
You have someplace to be
Smiles and butterflies all alike
For things that u’ve been waiting to see

All the eyes are stuck on you right now
Friends, foes and family too
Glimpses to keep forever with them
From what u were and how u’ve grown

Memory tests the sands of time
As phone calls and mails await
Busy as u maybe from now
Reply even though if late

Tell of times you go thru
Smiles and tears all alike
Make me see all there is
And all that u feel like

Time and again we shall meet
In memories of days gone by
Right now all I wish to say
Is do well and a wishful goodbye!!!

For the Friend in You ... From the Friend in Me

Putting words to pen was never tough
Although today I huff and I puff
Thinking of the right words to describe
The exact feeling that exact vibe
That makes me feel lil bubbles burst inside
Like the coke add running now world wide
How do I say it and what words to use
To make u understand why ur the muse
Of my writings today and for a while to come
Giving my heart now rhythmic beats of a drum
It all sounds gibberish and I feel so too
But thoughts race outta my mind that was once blue
Catching fleeting thoughts was never so tough
As before the sight of u never played bluff
A glimpse and a frown turns upwards now
A joke though at times so pakaooo
Takes me to a place I knew was within
That a friend like u turned tears to a grin
I wanted to tell u how I feel
About the way u spin my worldly wheel
I hope I do not come across too strong
My words at times do come out wrong
I wish to say that I care a lot
U’ll be in my mind even after I’m long forgot!!!

Trust ...

I say I trust you
It makes u feel good
But not for a moment do I
Let u look under the hood

I criticize and complain
At times wish to change
Leaving things not the way they are
Not even a single dirty pane

The windows I gaze out of
Let me see a different world
Sometimes it shows the truth
And then again it fools the girl

Innocence and starry eyes
Make me believe what I see
Perspective and reality
Tweak at times my beautiful dreams

Then I get lost in all the confusion
Created by my methodical brain
Only to come to terms with what I know
And mostly follow the path of my chosen train.

If u try to know me
You’ll have to try very hard
For though I say I trust you
I’ve never let u get that far

Maybe I’m tough and critical
Of what you say and do
But I know everything that I Lack
And things I Learn and Need from you

Last but not the least
The trust I speak about
Is the guard I haven’t let down
The door you’ve been trying to part!

Sarcasm

When words flow to the rhythm of a beat
To make every sentence sound so sweet
This is not one of those lines
Do u think sweetness is the only thing that rhymes?

Find beauty in words often thrown
In a manner that one refuses to own
Maybe from time to time you’ll see
It can ring in your ears like the humming of the bee

The time does not dictate its act
More often than not its just stating the fact
What makes u shrug or run away from it
Is that its probably the truth u cannot live with

The rhythm though so uncannily fine
It makes u skip a beat and well not for the rhyme
You jump in your seat as the target is hit
Wondering what the hell would be its next bit

Though small yet with a perfect wit
It still brings u down from where u currently sit
It finds and makes all exaggeration disappear
Cutting through your heart like a poisoned spear

Its often accompanied by emotional bliss
For the one that’s receiving it, it goes amiss
If you get it and still hope your not the one
It’ll hit u again and you’ll come undone

What brings it on one cannot imagine
What ticks one off in a ghastly fashion
Once the arrow has left its bow
Pray for the poor one who doesn’t know

Its him who’ll need all solace
For sarcasm in itself is one’s Saving Grace!!!!

Feeling Strongly ...

In these times of uncertainty generally in work, life and perspective; at times I find it so difficult to feel strongly about something and stay that way. I feel torn, worn and mostly spent on things that don’t matter much in the grander scheme of life. Weird as the feeling maybe it’s mostly exhilarating to find something that moves me so much as to wanna pen it down. Today I think about all the things that move and excite me but nothing compares to the feeling and adrenaline rush that THOUGHT brings more than the stimulant.
It’s this feeling that I want a daily dose of – anything a song, a poem, words, a touch or a smile or just the sight of my favorite things or the THOUGHT of these that keep me reliving the moments. It makes the very last hair on body stand with a chill down my spine and this cool current on the back of my neck as though someone’s breathing and running their fingers down my neck. It’s the exact feeling I replicate on various occasions and that’s what’s so addicting that I can't get enough of it.
So what do I do!! Well I at anytime do exactly wat I feel… at work I think of things that are so stimulating that a good 30 -45 mins go in just getting high till its gone again and I get back to the drag of work with a clearer head and better perspective to stuck up work.
I don’t need screwed work for me to want the high… sometimes for the pure joy of it I can go into my trance and get clearly happier than before and so relaxed.
The things that give me the high are Songs, Poems, a Voice, The joy of words being typed crazily on a typewriter, hands on clay, eyes playing with each other, stationery and books, whistling trees and wind rustling leaves, silence when we’re under the stars, ur smile that lights ur face up, the rain, snowy roads, cooking, and well this list is long long long….
This is why I thought what better to write about today than the fact that wat I’m doin right now is giving me a certain high though if seen from a third perspective would look as wasting a good 30 mins on personal work in office but this is gonna make me alive…
I don’t like letting a good thought pass by without experiencing it totally so I write when I want to and sing when I feel like and say wat I want to when I mean it and the rest is just a chain reaction… a spontaneous impulsive reaction to all that is thrown back till I am satisfied with the tussle between me and the thought and we’re back to our original state!
I have no clue how much of this you will get but do I care! Frankly I don’t give a rat’s arse cos this typing’s making me so dizzy that I’m already high on words and I have no reason to use the friggin backspace key as this is just flowing into something that will keep me a lil high for quite some time!
I’ve begun it ..i can see… ur infected aren’t u??? U wanna be here with me too don’t u…in this state… well u already are!! U don’t need to close ur eyes u can feel the blood rush and its beginning….
Well enjoy this darlings! Its gonna be a lovely evening!

Catching Up ...

Rushing through days life’s passing by like the breeze… I stop and stand wondering where I’m going? And then again there’s no time to do even that. Each day running into the next and then the following giving me but a little time fro myself to sit and ponder about what’s actually happening!
Running through work hoping tomorrow will be a different day when deep down inside I know that it’s not. Nothing’s gonna change unless and until I find a way to strike a balance between my mind, my racing heart and my materialistic existence!
I prepare a schedule almost every morning only to find at times failing miserably to even adhere to the smallest of tasks!! Then I think maybe all this discipline and order is not what I really want! Maybe I wanna just get up and do what makes me happy….and then it struck me… I really don’t know what makes me happy anymore! In finding happiness in small things I’ve lost the bigger picture… how did I manage to do that???
This is why I know now all this is just a really weird way of my mind trying to catch up to my ever changing heart and knowing WHAT Makes me HAPPY???
Too many questions… Too many answers… One purpose! Selfishness! Focus! Elimination of things I don’t see fit in my world!
With this purpose I now know what I seek… now I know where I’ll find it…. Now I know who will facilitate! Yeah all that Jazz about its within you…. Well yeah its not…its not just within you coz “You” is a word when looking from another’s eyes. “Me” makes it too selfish for one to see good for themselves. It’s more like when u know u wanna do something real for once and your convinced about what it is u really want… everyone and everything around u will motivate u to get to where u really want or what u really want… Somehow this concept never really sank in before and even when I’d get it partly I’d just somehow get a lil lost in its meaning! Now I have to Catch up!!! Lost time and lost energy aren’t coming back!!! I need to make do with all I have to get what it is I want…. Yes and You … Yeah YOU are gonna help me!!! You know when I say You it is YOU!!!
I’ll be with You and you with me!!! Lets Catch up… Lets just find a new me and a new you….
You take from me what u need and I from you… Yes be selfish… who isn’t? Don’t worry in the end it really doesn’t matter how you got to where u are as long as you know what u got is really worth having! Everything is justified!
So why wait Lets CATCH Up!!! We all have enough work to do!! Lets get what we wanted… I know you really want it!! Come lets Run alongside Life and Live it!
She’s Waiting since very long… The time has come! Are u with me??? :D

I

Seasons change and time flies by
I know ill never be what I am tonight
I take this moment to look and tell
What ticks me off and what rings the bell

Who I am now I cannot say
What ill be tom...well it’s another day
Today I feel I’m all I can be
Another day It's an opposite scene

I riddle and I rhyme...
I play mind games from time to time
I tease and I lift u up
I make u royal and reduce u to pulp

I like what I can or cannot see
I hide from you all I want to be
I make you want more than u can get
I make u lose less than you've bet

I am your all I am nothing too
I am your wish and am your blues
I am me and more often than not
I am someone u hoped I was not

I don’t hold back most of what is mine
I mostly get tarnished around with time
I will change and become a newer shade
I will soon turn to dust and fade

I cannot hold back what will become
I cannot be now what is yet to come
I do mostly what I feel I like
I cannot be controlled or momentum hiked

I go at my pace and then I change course
At times I get bored of the regular force
I like my challenge and like respite
I like this adoration and at times limelight.

I can be in the dark and glow oh so bright
I can stand beside you and still be outta sight
I am all the company and am loneliness too
I need everything with me and then again nothing new

I can let u go and take all u have to give
I can hold u close and leave u in bliss
I forget and let go and remember all I want
I remember and hold on and let memories haunt

I can go on and on and then abruptly leave
I say nothing and can still have u bleed
I be polite and nurture all there is
I tend to be blunt and even so ruthless

I hold u close and let u in
I move so fast to even block the wind
I go from cold to hot in a wink of an eye
I can at times leave u wanting high and dry

This I tell u this moment and now
Who knows what tom I would allow
Maybe I'd be exactly the same
And then again I’d play another game

All I know I am what I am
It’s just a different rearranged anagram
I be everything I know is within me
It’s a different picture of the same scenery!

Confusion ...

Here I am staring at the screen again
With no words left to write.
Why do I feel so spent yet restless?
And what makes me these words recite?

I’ve been here before haven’t I?
New it seems, yet familiar tones
The voice is so clear in my head
I can feel it right down to my bones.

What is it making me come back?
How does this hold a sway?
I never knew it could be so deep
And somehow I think it may go away.

Pessimism and Reality
These days go hand in hand
I think it’s the Hope u bring
That gives me the longest stand

I think I’d leave and yet wonder
How can I let go of this now?
This gift isn’t for me to give up
It’s never been mine somehow


A light breeze blowing over the land
The smell of spring’s leaves
You bring to me these little joys
As if it were tricks up your sleeves

A smile, a wink and then the gaze
I wonder what they mean?
A word, a phrase and then the song
And now I feel like a queen

Royalty in its own has what it takes
To get u to your knees
But what’s the use of making u bow
When I’m already at ur feet!

Gettin it on in Nippon

6 am and the rain is falling…
Its chilly outside with the hope of snow! Oh how I’d wish to see it fall!
Clean roads glazed with sparkly rain water! The drops are oh so tiny.. and soft!
And then this sudden chill down my spine from feeling cold and lonely far away from where I belong. In the balcony staring at the tiny droplets of water I wish for garam chai and bhajji’s but alas! If wishes were horses…. Anyhow I get my lazy arse back inside and keep the tea to boil…I like it creamy and gingeryy … I bring out my last haldiram’s packet of bhujiya and enjoy every last bit of it with the chai. Playing in the rain like a small girl I come back with wet hair and a sneeze! Achhhoooo!!!! Mummy come dry my hair!!! But well I get the towel and do it myself.
As the day progresses and im at work… A new place … new culture… new rules and well new violations!!! So lets see what do I see around…. Short people scurrying to work and being totally cramped in the train??? Quite contrary… They’re not as short as we think… I believe the “mingling” with the Germans and Americans have gotten them to mix up the genes!!! :D Disorganized? Well certainly not they have instructions to walk and stand and even bloody pee so how can anyone fuck up there! They’re so mechanical that they live by the bell!! I mean it … there is an entry bell at 8 am and then at 9 with a lunch bell at 12, where all the lights of the office are switched off so that one can take a power nap after lunch, then a reminder at 12 55 that one should wake up and then a 1 pm bell to get back to work ,with the lights all turned on to give u that feeling of finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel!!! This is not it there’s a “Go home bell” at 5 for those who came at 8 and then well another at 6 for the entries at 9… finally a “Fuck go home bell” at 7 forcing employees working late due to incompetence or plain tardiness to scoot home!!! This amazed me for a bit but well there’s more. Since from time to time one doesn’t complete his “Power Nap” within the stipulated hours you’d find a few snores in the bathrooms! To add to all this most people here have a nightly bathing ritual or something coz they just wake up in the morning, get ready and begin their mechanical lives. To compensate for missed activities office hours are conveniently used to brush teeth and well complete morning ablutions. :) These people work real hard and stick to their 9-6 jobs and then party harder!!! Well anyways they’re sweet and helpful especially when I don’t know jackshit Japanese!
So the week goes by in a whiz and the weekends here!!! Yay!! So here I am with a handful of Indians and an even lesser number in terms of cool quotient! So we decide to try our hands at some skiing or rather legs!!! We traveled to this awesome place called Nagano – Hakuba :D and Whoa it was cold and we saw some tourists spots – Castles , mountains and bars hehehhe Got sloshed and well sang our hearts out!! Next morning hit the ski zones and well by the end of it were dead tired and sleepy!!! All this fun on my first weekend and I started getting greedy for more
Following weekends weren’t as dramatic or far fetched but had good fun bowling and oh yess!!! Shopping!!! And ofcourse pubbin :D
Nightlife in Japan is in no way compared to Bangalore…. The night’s done at 11:30 in Bangalore where as here public don’t hit the bars till around 12 or 1…. Partying all night is a common thing and people just flock streets and go pub hopping! Its full of colours and booming with technology… They have some small lil gadget for like everything!!! Trust me u’d love the Toilets… or Super Toilets as they call it. Right from flushin ur arse to warming ur butt ( the best thing in the winters)they actually take ur arse and in a nice way  hehehhehe
Kids and Adults all alike are crazy about Video games and any game in general and most people here alongwith their day jobs do social work or teach at community centres or schools. All in all they balance their lives well!!
My stay here was more than what I’d expected it to be and well all thanks to the kudmud gang here that showed me a gud time!! ;) Awaiting my next visit here and the places I’ll be hitting.
Well till next time I’ll sign off sayin
Domo arigato gozaimasu, Sayonara (Thank you very much, goodbye)

Bangalore Blues and Greens ...

I know its been real real long since the last post but traveling, shifting and finding a roof to shelter me in exchange for money and not smiles or major ass kickin.
So I landed here (read Bangalore) on the 7th of December, 2008 to find myself lugging around bags to my hotel room with the help of an already drained dude ( Rohan Rocks!!!)
Then came the first day of office and the excitement was killing. After a real long time I’d be ticking another item of my list of must do / have. The day was done and everyone was warm and welcoming. Looking forward to every day at work and the usual first month went by in a jiffy just adjusting and assimilating everything around you.
After hrs on the other hand was something that I looked forward too as it was the most fulfilling part of the day. And all this was possible thanks to the most lovable guy I met a few years ago and ever since every ass kickin session’s been nothing but pure fun!! Yes I guess he knows it’s him but I’ll single him out nonetheless - Shanky a.k.a Modi a.k.a Wanky (don’t kill me for the last one its K Baby's i believe). Anyways we’ve had some serious times too ( just so that he doesn’t pass off as an ASS) its just that it makes no sense to write about serious stuff :). He introduced me to the most enthusiastic bunch of people full of energy with a dash of madzzznezzz :D Everyone’s weird in their own cute way :D. Since day one its been endless laughs and doses of herbs and spices ;) apart from the regular overdoses of ITC products :). Top it off with some chicken wings and kathi rolls and oh yeah not to forget the ever famous DBC’s (for those who don’t know Death by Chocolates that adorned our kitchen on new years) Ofcourse most of my creative juices were spent in weaving a nice warm blanket of friends for Madzz ;) (she is gonna kill me soon for all the ass kicking :D)
Come weekends and I’d chill with the gang or once in a while meet the other Dawgs I know :D (Shvets + Rohan, Saurav , Chunnu and Sagar). Once in a bit as Naga calls him “Macho Man” would come around and we’d hookah or chill :D. So I believe basically there’s been a lot of enthusiasm shown in lazying around and oh yeah singing at the top of our voices to ruin almost everyone’s sleep :D
Moved into my own place in Jan and so far still unpacking and still managing to sneak a few days back to shank’s warm lil nest which by the way is probably the only best place I know in Bangy. The “Inmates” (called so as this jail kinda makes someone wanna stay on forever) Gunjan and Vipin are probably the warmest people I’ve come across making each day of my then so undetermined length of stay very memorable and leaving me wanting more :). Anyways I see I can go on forever about each and everyone I met and everything I did here so far but I feel something’s are better left unsaid
So till next time…

Gender Bender

In an age where men are boys and women have lost their inner girls, we strive to become stronger as people in terms of status, money and all the other materialistic attributes.
Somehow we’ve lost the basics in this rush to grow up and prove our mettle. Competition with colleagues, siblings and the world in general to establish one’s own has made us lose out on the smaller pleasures of life.
Let’s begin with the basic stuff….
Men and Women no longer fit the images in our head. The new age woman, as the term has been coined, is this female who has tremendous strength mentally and the will to convert all her dreams to reality. She somehow has not only convinced herself but the world in general that she is of some super human power to protect her naïve and gentle image as a home maker and also change roles to become this major career woman tackling all sorts of tasks physically and mentally. She has managed by her actions and words to overcome all barriers and in this fight has conveniently ignored the finer things in life… she has lost her innocence and sometimes even the gleam in her eye. This woman we’re talking about is not just your top class executives but the very ordinary middle class train-traveling metropolitan-ite that I’ve grown up watching. She wakes up early to be a good “housewife” and cook and clean and wash her kids up only to find herself running to catch the VT / Churchgate fast to work where she faces mostly this male superior who is only wondering as too why she comes to work when she can sit quietly at home and be a “housewife” (in quotes because no one realizes that it takes more out of a woman to be this than work and come home…most often used in a derogatory manner) than rather hog up a seat where he probably thinks another able “man” would fit! The more she pushes to work and justify her position the more he resists and the more the image in his mind is distorted. This very reason of distortion then brings about this really weird change in the man. He begins to feel as though he isn’t good enough and she is trying to take away from him the only thing he can or rather will prove to be good at… his DOMAIN,… his JUNGLE! He, the Come-of-Age Man, has lost his wildness and readiness to take up challenges only to fear the female counterpart to over shadow him. He probably feels that she hasn’t given up her domain (the home) and has now ventured out into his to overpower. He won’t think of it as a gesture of help or one that shows she wants to share the load. He dint ask her to share it now did he??? And this gesture is never obviously interpreted as “I’m sharing ur load ...can u help me out with mine?” Obviously its asking too much of him to help! He has a family to run! In all this Men are filled with disgust and have this standoffish trait that only makes it difficult for them to peacefully coexist! He doesn’t realize in all this he has lost his gift of being MALE… he has unconsciously given up his scepter when no one asked him too! Instead of taking up the challenge he has begun to sulk and become petulant! He at times now wishes he dint have to stand around and watch Her rule, what’s been his for ages, the way she does, which obviously isn’t the right way according to him, so he doesn’t bother to even HELP… and mind u this is his own kingdom . Somehow with one swoop now everything is bestowed upon her with the ever increasing expectations to serve better at home too just as a final attempt to try and get her back. What ever happened to the old school of thoughts… u come into my domain and I fight you to keep it with me… Fight… here in reference a mental struggle to prove that you’re better at what has been yours since time endless… do that… its all yours … she didn’t really want it in the first place. I feel once that happens and they generally get the feeling that they are meant to do only this and this should be theirs… a feeling of OWNERSHIP and some POSSESSIVENESS to what has been given as legacy to them then things will be easier on the both! Once a man realizes that all that is HIS needs to be constantly fought for and his skills made better to keep this his then he retains his manhood. Similarly when a woman realizes the power she holds and uses it well to nurture herself and the family(what ever she calls family) she has for its betterment she keeps her innocence and glow. The tables have turned that the general basic instinct in both have died… neither are themselves and neither agree they’re not.
A few minor changes in the way of thought and I guess we’re back to have our Men like we used to Love and they get their Women as the sort they’d love to woo!!!

Love, remember?

I wish I’d live a life of no regrets
Everyday a perfect sunset!
Each day passes and I get all from it
Still it’s as though there’s something left
People pass by and I notice you
You stop and I know u’ve noticed me too
We move on as so the world does
Backward glance and forward moves
Smile on my lips and hope in my heart
I go on for the remainder days on the chart.
Etched in my memory a face somewhere
But alas tomorrow is another day!

[P.S. For a friend who probably feels this way due to current circumstances! I know It'll be alright in the end .... To better things and people for u my friend.... always here for u]

Love Actually

Been noticing this couple since a long long time now and wondering wat the hell were they thinking when they decided to tie the knot!!! And I seriously keep wondering that if they dint find each other then where would they be??? The weirdest thing is that I find this answer in the weirdest places... places where u know it will be it wont really show up... and then when there’s no one around there u see it gleaming in their eyes and then you say “aaahhhhh this is what I want or rather want for the one” .It’s a feeling...yeah I know u know this but I’ll tell u how I came to realise where it really lies.

So he’s an average hard working individual and she’s an average working woman who met at work and well just like any slick man he won her after quite a few one liners and constant persuasion and a wit like none I’ve seen so far. He said he’d be all she ever needed and well she believed him. He loved her and she finally realised she did so too. It took a few months, a lotta patience, a few broken bones and some cooking skills to get them together and ofcourse the gift of the gab that the gentleman was blessed with ;). After all this they took their vows and pledged a lifetime of togetherness. Its definitely not a smooth journey .... its life for heaven sake...when was it supposed to be a cakewalk... its just not a bed of roses. So just like every person they had their ups and downs and trust me enough that most couples now a days would just give up and let go and take their separate ways... I’ve seen most take the easy way out too... but not them. Supporting one another when no one around did and in all this one would think love’s lost for sure and well there were times that I guessed even they questioned its existence but every ray of hope showing better times brought them right back to the day they met and the love just happened all over again...over and over and over. After years of toiling on homeground he decided to venture out seeing that things could be managed here at home. She still thought he cant be by himself and accompanied him in all he did ... some trying times. Its been 25+ yrs and they still went for their evening walks and talks everyday. Then came that day when this could not happen too but still she sat by him reading the news or whatever they could do together. There are times when the whole scene turns into a battlefield of words and general backlash and even namecallin and even at the end of that day they manage to crack some stupid joke and have dinner peacefully. She’s currently out on a trip and just the other day I called to check on them and I heard “its alright she’d be home soon” And the voice on the phone seemed so hopeful and filled with joy that she’s havin a nice time with her school kids somewhere and yet convincing me that he’s ok and anyways all he needs is her.

Thats when I realised I need this...someone who is not just the Mr charming but someone who misses me just because he cant live without me and still keeps it real. You find love in the strangest places and its all about moments like these that give u glimpses of that piece of heaven u want!

[P.S Mummy is obviously something to still keep that fire alive in Dad. Dad definitely still has his way with the Girl!!!!]