Trust ...

I say I trust you
It makes u feel good
But not for a moment do I
Let u look under the hood

I criticize and complain
At times wish to change
Leaving things not the way they are
Not even a single dirty pane

The windows I gaze out of
Let me see a different world
Sometimes it shows the truth
And then again it fools the girl

Innocence and starry eyes
Make me believe what I see
Perspective and reality
Tweak at times my beautiful dreams

Then I get lost in all the confusion
Created by my methodical brain
Only to come to terms with what I know
And mostly follow the path of my chosen train.

If u try to know me
You’ll have to try very hard
For though I say I trust you
I’ve never let u get that far

Maybe I’m tough and critical
Of what you say and do
But I know everything that I Lack
And things I Learn and Need from you

Last but not the least
The trust I speak about
Is the guard I haven’t let down
The door you’ve been trying to part!