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Seasons change and time flies by
I know ill never be what I am tonight
I take this moment to look and tell
What ticks me off and what rings the bell

Who I am now I cannot say
What ill be tom...well it’s another day
Today I feel I’m all I can be
Another day It's an opposite scene

I riddle and I rhyme...
I play mind games from time to time
I tease and I lift u up
I make u royal and reduce u to pulp

I like what I can or cannot see
I hide from you all I want to be
I make you want more than u can get
I make u lose less than you've bet

I am your all I am nothing too
I am your wish and am your blues
I am me and more often than not
I am someone u hoped I was not

I don’t hold back most of what is mine
I mostly get tarnished around with time
I will change and become a newer shade
I will soon turn to dust and fade

I cannot hold back what will become
I cannot be now what is yet to come
I do mostly what I feel I like
I cannot be controlled or momentum hiked

I go at my pace and then I change course
At times I get bored of the regular force
I like my challenge and like respite
I like this adoration and at times limelight.

I can be in the dark and glow oh so bright
I can stand beside you and still be outta sight
I am all the company and am loneliness too
I need everything with me and then again nothing new

I can let u go and take all u have to give
I can hold u close and leave u in bliss
I forget and let go and remember all I want
I remember and hold on and let memories haunt

I can go on and on and then abruptly leave
I say nothing and can still have u bleed
I be polite and nurture all there is
I tend to be blunt and even so ruthless

I hold u close and let u in
I move so fast to even block the wind
I go from cold to hot in a wink of an eye
I can at times leave u wanting high and dry

This I tell u this moment and now
Who knows what tom I would allow
Maybe I'd be exactly the same
And then again I’d play another game

All I know I am what I am
It’s just a different rearranged anagram
I be everything I know is within me
It’s a different picture of the same scenery!

Confusion ...

Here I am staring at the screen again
With no words left to write.
Why do I feel so spent yet restless?
And what makes me these words recite?

I’ve been here before haven’t I?
New it seems, yet familiar tones
The voice is so clear in my head
I can feel it right down to my bones.

What is it making me come back?
How does this hold a sway?
I never knew it could be so deep
And somehow I think it may go away.

Pessimism and Reality
These days go hand in hand
I think it’s the Hope u bring
That gives me the longest stand

I think I’d leave and yet wonder
How can I let go of this now?
This gift isn’t for me to give up
It’s never been mine somehow


A light breeze blowing over the land
The smell of spring’s leaves
You bring to me these little joys
As if it were tricks up your sleeves

A smile, a wink and then the gaze
I wonder what they mean?
A word, a phrase and then the song
And now I feel like a queen

Royalty in its own has what it takes
To get u to your knees
But what’s the use of making u bow
When I’m already at ur feet!